exams are next week.

i don't want to study.

i feel like crap.

i'm bleeding from 3+ places, have a bloody headache, abdominal pains and am way too fatigued.


at this rate i'm thinking i'll only be happy when everyone shuts up and exams become infertile.............





But in other news!

I was in Melbourne until yesterday on a school art excursion over the weekend. Saw some damn awesome stuff like Rosalie Gascoigne's stuff... she's awesome.
Got a pair of Rebecca Sanver black suede + snake skin slingback heels for $55 reduced from $365. That made my day : D

I should post some stuff I'm doing up here for my Art and English major works..... should be fun : p



_{to be as kniving as this i would be. the tender rose flourishly received to the palm of your hand. the stings of thorns as you clasp its stem.}

Hey dudes

It's holidays again! lol Maybe I'll just update my account whenever it's the hols... seems easier :/

It's like... nearly the end of the first of two weeks of holidays, and I haven't touched any work at all!! All like, 20+ hours of it or something. No music practice either.
Hmm.

Updating about camera stuff, back in January... some time... I won a voucher to spend online at Sony, so I'm going to get a camera! Just a nice basic one, coz like, it was within the budget of the voucher haha and I'd cry if I spent extra and got it broken/scratched/something. So basic is good.
This will mean I'll finally be able to post up some of my humungous stuff! (One of my things that I want to show you all is like, at least A2 in size............ it's massive) Woo.
Related, I do have all these photos that I would love to post up, but they feature people and I really don't want to cause privacy problems, so yeah. :/

I'm going positively Robert Pattinson and Twilight crazy (lol I'm a "fanpire"....... pfft get it?) so when the movie comes out in December, don't expect to hear from me for a while. I might be dead from hyperventilating too much. : D!!

Uhh about school, Year 11's pretty harsh. I have no prep/study periods because I'm doing 14 units... so I'm trying to figure out what subject(s) to drop. Right now I'm only considering Extension Math, Extension English and Visual Arts as they all seem pretty unnecessary for the science/medical courses I'm looking at for uni. I would really like to drop something very soon, but I'm going to try and see how I go this term, then make a decision. Seems the logical way to go about it, anyway...
If I could have it my way, though, I'd only do 10 or 11 units. But no. My school has a compulsory minimum of 12 units. sigh.
Other things about school that have been gay have been having classes some days until 5pm... get home after 6pm. If I don't have music or something as well. Ugh. And I've needed to quit like, 3 music ensembles because of not being able to handle the commitment, or my new extension classes get in the way... and I stupidly didn't try out for the school elite hockey team which would have been a good thing to do, but I'm dumb and didn't.
But all in all, school's alright right now.

Um and my sister made me sick on like, the 2nd day of the holidays. Awesome-ness.
It hurts to swallow my own saliva.

Won't bother with traditional "to-do list"......... I typed it up the other day and it's pretty horrific looking. Ugh.

Hope everyone's been well and taking care

Ugh, I normally journal like, at least once every month but things have been busy and then I've been lazy... not really the best combo eh :/

But anyway, just hope that everybody had a great Christmas and that this new year may be filled with good experiences and memories

I can't believe that summer holidays are already like, half finished agh
Hmm since I haven't journaled for a while, I guess I'll try and start some kind of discussion... I don't know about a lot of you guys, but I never ever get bored in the holidays. Often in the holidays though I always get messages from friends saying that they're always so bored, especially in the summer break because it's so long... and I'm just wondering, what the hell do you guys not do to make yourselves bored then?????
Like, I seem to find that in the holidays while I'm at home there's always endless stuff to do - like, of course there's browsing the internet and chatting with friends online (when I actually turn up online... see, I have many things to do), then I'm always trying to get on with a project, such as making a new website layout, learning new musical pieces, reading a book, go out for a run to get more fit... and then there's stuff around the house, like always cleaning up my room after I've chucked around all my clothes trying to decide what to wear, hanging up the washing and gardening. Of course there's also going out with friends and family, going shopping and just staying up late watching dvds.
And it's these things that keep me busy from day to day in the holidays. The good thing about doing all these things is that they all make me feel good and accomplished in some way. I know this is putting it bluntly, but it really does puzzle me why you guys all always seem so bored when clearly there's so much to do!
I know that I'm not taking all situations into account, but I just felt like putting this out there for some people to think about, in case if you are on holidays and are about to go bugging me about being bored. If you're a real life friend and actually want to go out and do something, that's absolutely fine, but if you don't have that intention, and just want to complain to me about being bored, just please... consider what it feels like to have people complain to you and you really honestly do not know how you can help because there are other things that you could (or should) be doing.
I'm sorry if this is really blunt, but it really has been bugging me for the past few years and I hope that maybe you guys can find something to achieve these holidays and not just waste this time that we can spend doing stuff that we don't always get to do while at school.
Didn't really turn out to be much of a discussion, eh. More a statement. xD;;
And please take into consideration this is only asking you to consider things, not to offend.


But on a friendlier note, a few weeks ago I got my free Final Fantasy XI starter pack in the mail and was wondering if any of you guys out there play as well and could maybe give me a few tips. I haven't actually installed it yet because I want a better idea of how the game works before I do, since it's only a 30-day subscription, but I'm about to download the full manual from the Square-Enix website

In terms of art-making, I have quite a few things to put up, but I'll probably need a camera, so while the sales are on, hopefully we can find a decent camera so you guys can see what I've been up to! Suggestions on a good, basic camera that is well-priced and available in Sydney, Australia would be welcome.
I guess I should also try and put up some videos that I did in my photography & digital media class at school... I'm thinking a link to a youtube upload is the way, but if any of you guys have experience in this area that'd be cool : D

Today I'm going out with my mum and sister to do some errands and then go do a bit of shopping... with some monies I gathered from X'mas I might go get the Twillight book boxset... ever since my sister got me into the books I can't stop thinking about it!! And omg Edward Cullen......... sighhhhh....... and Robert Pattinson (Cedric Diggory from HP4) is going to be him in the movie coming out in December!! For those of you who are into Twilight, what do you think? Most people seem very strongly opinionated about it, most saying that they crushed their dreams of what Edward ought to look like... but seeing as while I was reading the books I really didn't know how to picture him in my head (since his name was Edward I seemed to just keep on getting pictures of Edward Scissorhands in my head.... hahahaha), he actually seems to me quite the perfect Edward, as perfect as he can be. For those who think he isn't as perfect as Edward, I read somewhere someone making a great statement, that how can anybody make the perfect Edward? Because he is perfect, no one could ever be just like him...

But anyway, long enough journal to mull over. I think I'll edit later and add my traditional holiday "things to do" list : )

Everyone take care and enjoy your holidays (if you are on them that is haha otherwise, enjoy life )

30th October 2007

Re: the formal. Bit overrated, but still fun... was interesting to see how everyone polished up but some, which of course includes me girlies were absolutely gorgeoussss
i hated the strobe lights. i should've just gone and shot the guy agh

should make a new journal soon... seems i do one every month on average XD

lovelove

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7th October 2007
This looked fun XD; nicked off

<sub>[HIGH CLASS]
[ ] You go tanning.
[ ] You own something from Prada
[ ] You own something from Coach
[ ] You own something from Juicy Couture
[ ] You own something from Louis Vuitton
[ ] You own an iPod. ... better - a sony walkman
[x] You like Starbucks. the frappes... :9
[x] You have been called a brat.
[x] You own more than 7 pairs of shoes
[ ] You hate buying things that are on sale
total-3
what's with the prada/coach/juicy/louis vuitton though... so damn american/japanese............ give some choice!!!!! like, chanel, dior, lacoste, ben sherman, kenzo... then I'd be able to say all of those haha

[GOTH]
[x] Black is one of your favorite colours shades
[ ] You wear chains.
[ ] You like heavy metal.
[x] You understand that Marilyn Manson is NOT goth..just crazy.
[ ] You've shopped at Hot Topic.
[ ] You have worn black lipstick.
[x] Your hair was/is dark
[ ] You dislike preps.
[ ] You have piercings.
total-3

[PUNK]
[ ] You can skateboard.
[ ] You wear plaid.
[ ] You have Converse.
[ ] You hate MTV.
[ ] You have/HAD blue, pink, red, purple, or green hair.
[ ] You love skater boys/girls.
[ ] You hate preps.
[x] You wear tight pants.
total- 1. lol

[EMO]
[x] You are depressed sometimes
[x] You have black-rimmed glasses.
[ ] You like the band Thursday Who?
[x] You cry easily.
[ ] You like "emo" music.
[ ] You hate being called emo.
[x] You have written a sad poem
[x] You have thought about death.
total-5

[GHETTO/GANGSTA]
[ ] You like rap
[ ] You are in a gang/rep
[ ] You wear rubberbands in your pants.
[ ] You swear a lot.
[ ] You have worn a grill.
[ ] You have had a freestyling contest.
[ ] You have worn Converse with the tongue flipped out.
[x] You use slang so much its hard to understand you
total- 1


[HARDCORE]
[x] You like loud music
[x] You loved the Ninja Turtles
[ ] You never walk anywhere.
[x] You wear slip-on shoes.
[ ] You love Norma Jean.
[ ] You wear band T-shirts
[x] People have called you a freak and meant it
[ ] Your hair has been dyed more than one color.
total-4

[PREP]
[ ] You love The OC.
[ ] Your usual outfits consist of pink.
[x] You like buying shoes.
[x] You shop at AE, HOLLISTER, A&F.ETC. ... if the designers i mentioned earlier count lol
[x] You love to shop.
[x] You love jeans.
[x]Getting your nails done is a fun thing...
[x]You wear big sunglasses. when i haven't misplaced them. :I lol
total- 6

[Athletic]
[x] You own track shoes or cleats other sports related shoes.
[ ] you collect your jerseys
[ ] You have/had a special shelf for trophies and awards. i misplace all of my ribbons hahaha
[ ] You have/had posters or plaques of famous athletes.
[ ] Your garage/shed consists of sports equipment.
[x] You belong/belonged to a school team.
[x] You are going/did go to a sports summer program.
total- 3

[SCENE]
[ ] You wear little tiny bows in your hair
[ ]You like mardi gras beads, pearls and plastic beads
[ ]You have at least 3 shirts with tiny designs all through the shirt
[x] You part your hair to the side. ...
[x] You think polka dots are cute.
[ ] You have shopped at Charlotte Russe wth is that
[x] You have done a peace sign while you pose for a picture coz i'm crazy azn
[ ] You've been called scene before I've never even HEARD OF scene before. - totally ditto satomi haha
total- 3

[REDNECK]
[ ] gone four wheeling wth o_o
[ ] Went hunting
[ ] Owned a fourwheeler or dirtbike
[ ] Eat deer
[ ] Ever said GET-R-DONE?
[ ] Ever owned or rented a blue collar comedy movie
[ ] You have drove a four-wheeler in to a tree
[ ] Have listened to the song redneck woman
total- 0</sub>

So I'm:
1. Prep. o_o
2. Emo. (WTHEMO-PREPPIE???)
3. Hardcore
4. High class-Goth-Athletic-Scene
5. Ghetto/Gangsta-Punk
6. Redneck

Bit surprising. Someone needs to revise this test......................

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1st October 2007

Wewt it's holidays finally!! After the longest term of the year we're on a two week break.... yesssssssss been getting exams back... but um nevermind them

Not that it's really going to be much of a break... although for everyone in my year at school, including me, we virtually have no work to do besides do the odd revision for the School Certificate in November which doesn't count for anything, I still have quite a lot to do... hence the upcoming list haha I love lists, my life consistently lives on and relies on them :'D Don't know if that's a good thing...

Hmm second week back is our formal... my first :'D For non-Aussies, it's like, the prom haha I've got the shoes, bag and the fabric for the dress, so just have to make that And this coming week I'll have to get another dress and pair of shoes since I'm going to a friend's formal too Recently I've been doing push-ups and sit-ups everyday to help trim down my upper body... because I have pretty small boobs (soz if I scarred you) it makes it look like my tummy sticks out making me fat XD I'm thinking if I can try making my tum a bit flatter then it might give the illusion that my boobs are a <bit> bigger too hahaha!! Going out for runs these hols too to target the lower body
And then straight after my friend's formal, the morning after I'm off to a school service project with ~mimzy91! Yay it's going to be so much fun! We're going to be helping lil country primary school kids learn how to swim, make videos, a website and help them make an X'mas concert for their parents too

Hope everyone's been well, I know I am, what with it being holidays and everything! Staying up late (not too late haha) and sleeping in... awesome-ness. And it's nearly summer!! Although it already feels like summer lol (it's already 30+ degrees outside... x_x )

Take care

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STUFF TO DO SPRING HOLIDAYS 07
<sub>in order of importance under each heading
last updated 30th october 2007

school work
maths - revise (because that exam result was so appalling)

computer
make back-up discs
get usb port + scratches fixed
transfer files from old to new vaio
figure out how to create a file/printer-sharing wireless network

shopping
formal
dress
shoes
bag
make-up (check up on foundation)

clothes
brown canterbury shorts (or any other colour that suits)
shirt (look at esprit, bonds, lacoste, ralph lauren, ben sherman)
bikini/one piece
summer dress (esprit, bonds, lacoste, ralph lauren, ben sherman)
birkenstocks
singlet top (look at esprit, bonds, lacoste, ralph lauren, ben sherman)
rm williams
knee length shorts (got from esprit )

canterbury shorts
shirt
summer dress
2 singlet tops

other
cleanser (biotherm, garnier or neutrogena)
non-sunscreen moisturiser (biotherm, garnier, nivea or neutrogena)

other
finish making formal dress
50 push-ups + 50 sit-ups everyday
run every second day that isn't rainy/dangerous weather
dry-clean uniforms
sleep lots
play+finish pokemon sapphire
play kh2
play ffxii
finish last 4 missions on ff:ta
beach</sub>

sigh. Exams = ghey.
I should be studying... but I've been tagged by ! XD

8 Random Facts About Me

<sub>Rules:

1. Post these rules
2. Each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3. Tags should write a journal/ blog of these facts
4. At the end of the post 8 more people are tagged and named
5. Go to their page and leave a comment telling them they're tagged</sub>

1. Once in English we were reading poems and came along this one about a pebble... I put up my hand and said, "This poem makes me feel round." : )
2. I can twist my tongue both ways...
3. ... and make it touch my nose.
4. I've been playing piano since I was 3
5. I should be studying for exams..........
6. I got the newest Harry Potter binder. : ) ...
7. ... with matching dividers
8. I am cool. Okay? haha jks I couldn't come up with another thing. :/

I tag: ......... that's all for now lol

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THINGS TO DO - WINTER/SPRING '07
<sub>in order of importance under each heading
last updated - 1st october 2007

school work
art - exam yesssss a lot easier than i expected!!! yay they're normally really hard and gay... didn't manage to finish one question but that's a lot better than other's haha
christian studies - exam wewt
english - exam i'm a bit worried that i don't seem to have had as much difficulty as other people... might have missed something big
japanese - reading/written/listening exam
maths - exam
pdm - exam
science - exam
japanese - speaking exam
pdhpe - exam
aus history - exam
aus geo - exam

aus history - housing from the 1950s to 2000 presentation
japanese - culture presentation
english - finish reading pride & prejudice

shopping
manga
Loveless 6
Fullmetal Alchemist 14/15 (if it's out)
Gravitation/Ex 2
DNAngel 11 (or any)
anything yaoi <3

clothing
brown canterbury shorts
new bikini!! XD
black bonds hoodie (if they have them... they should) I found my old black hoodie... my sister was using it and intended to send it to dry cleaning o_O
yes, i like black. shut up.

other

sort out new vaio (need to get Office!! DX + got weird scratches and usb port broke...)
sort out files on old vaio... dying
play kh2
play ffxii
finish my last 14 6 missions on ff:ta
fix up sleeves on black overcoat it's kind of too hot right now lol</sub>